God, If You're Not up There, I'm F*cked

God, If You're Not up There, I'm F*cked

Tales of Stand-up, Saturday Night Live, and Other Mind-altering Mayhem

Book - 2011
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Tina Fey's Bossypantsmeets David Carr's The Night of the Gun in Darrell Hammond'sgroundbreaking memoir, God, If You're Not Up There, I'm F*cked--a raw look inside the troubled life and mind of anAmerican comic genius. By turns poignant and hilarious, Hammond takes readersfrom the set of Saturday Night Live, where he was the show'slongest-tenured cast member, to the drug-ridden streets of Harlem and into thetwisting corridors of his own unflaggingly humorous consciousness. Minglingbehind-the-scenes stories from television's best-loved comedy series with adark look inside a world-class funnyman, God If You're Not Up There,I'm F*cked is a book sure to resonate with anyonewho shares a talent for performance, a love of comedy, or a desire to know howan artist can climb from the deepest despair to the very top of his profession.
Publisher: New York : Harper, c2011.
Edition: 1st ed.
ISBN: 9780062064554
Characteristics: ix, 273 p., [16] p. of plates : ill. ; 24 cm.


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Jul 14, 2020

Dark, shocking, and filled with revelation, the story of Darrell Hammond's life and career is a must-read for fans of the greatest era of SNL.

Jan 18, 2018

An amazing story, just recently heard about it and have now read. Darryl Hammond was a SNL actor who was on the show for a record breaking seventeen years. What was going on behind the scenes of his life is truly amazing. Not often do we get men's stories dealing with their trauma history. My Shadow Ran Fast by Bill Sands, A Hold in the World by Richard Rhodes and God, If You're Not up There, I"m F*cked. Very few. This book by Mr. Hammond should be in every practitioner's library. The parade of psychiatrists who treated him were without a clue prescribing countless medications. And this should give everyone pause that psychiatry is a willy nilly profession with only a few good practitioners. Thank you for sharing your story! You were terrific on SNL but your book is an unforgettable legacy of recovery.

May 26, 2012

Darrell Hammond was always one of my favourite SNL cast members. He can do so many impressions. I don't care too much for politics so I liked it when he did stuff like portraying Sean Connery on Celebrity Jeopardy. When you see him on TV, he makes comedy look easy and natural.

Now that I read what was happening to him behind the scenes, I am amazed that he could function at all on stage. (Stuff like cutting himself and having panic attacks.) Sounds like his mother was extremely mentally disturbed and terrorized him constantly and he is still traumatized. Even though he seems to be able to find medical help, he still has flashbacks and breakdowns, even as recently as within the last couple of years.


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